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I only love you.

I know sometimes I act like I don't love you and sometimes I'm really mean to you but the true reason I act like a bitch sometimes is well . . . because . . . you piss me off, duh :) on the real though you better know I love you cause I do - explain my love ? I don't need to.

Things could not be any better than having you in my life. You are my inspiration and my shoulder to cry on, you're the one who stands by me through everything and most of all, you make me know that I am loved. There is no one that completes me the way that you do. You mean everything to me.There is nothing that I would not do for you and there is no one else I would want to share my life with.

You are the reason I get up each morning, and you make me look at life with a new perspective. I have never met anyone as wonderful as you. I really miss you.There are so many things that I am grateful for I can't even count. You have been there for me through thick and thin and I thank you for giving me that opportunity to get to know you and for always being there for me. You mean so much to me, it's so unbelievable that I have someone such as you. Even when I am down you are there for me.

Things have been so hectic that I could not have wanted anyone to be there for me but you. You have been the stability in my life and this is just a note to let you know that I love you. Baby, you are my sun, my moon, my whole universe. I love you for who you are and what you make of me when I am with you. With the exceptions of my parents and you, there has never been anyone in my life whom I could have depended on through the tough times in my life. There has never been a love that I could call love in the relationships I've had. There are so many things that I can thank you for but that will be impossible for me to do because there are so many. . .

Baby, I really think that this time it is for real. No one can replace you and if anything happens to you, I don't know what I'd do without you. You are the one person that I love dearly. You are my life and everything revolves around you. You seem to hold my whole life in your hands. You always make the whole room light up when you enter it, and you just know how to be my star, but you're not my star. . . you are my angel. Babe, there's nothing in this world that I would not do for you ! I love you! Yours and only yours forever.

i'm back

wow, I'm way over due to post a new blog, lol -- so here are some updates :)

my relationship with tatyana is going well ; we recently got engaged and it's all on tape.

click the link to watch.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kkx4T6icpAg

moving on: I have been looking for apartments in new york but blah I don't want to live there and I know if I move there I wouldn't be happy. so I started looking in Wilmington, DE and I love it because I don't have to worry about walking down the street and getting shot nor do I ever have to worry about being broke cause everything is tax free and cheap in Delaware ! hopefully I move soon within the next 3-6 months because I'm really stressed living here with my mother and her boyfriend I'm really surprised i haven't killed any one yet :)

oh, a picture of us.

yes, i know we make a beautiful couple.

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so, let me tell you all about the day I met the love of my life :)

I woke up at 3 am took a shower, got ready and at 6:15 I got on my first bus headed to Wilmington, DE. waited until 9am for my greyhound bus that was fucking late then the bus driver said we have to stop in mt Laurel NJ because our bus is about to catch on fire LORD i was pissed : we changed buses and everyone was safe thank the lord. finally i got to new york and my baby called me and asked me to meet her on the second floor at the port authority i was so fucking nervous i wanted to shit on my self lmao. i was walking looking around and at the corner of my eye i saw this woman peeking on the side of the wall and i turned my head and it was her ! she wasn't looking at me cause she was in her own little world lmfao but then i said "baby i see you" and she looked around and spotted "a tall girl" and she fucking ran into the bathroom i couldn't stop laughing i thought i was going to piss my self. she wouldn't come out the damn bathroom for a good 15 minutes lmfaooo and i wouldn't go inside the damn bathroom to get her cause we was both shy & nervous ha ha. it was cute though finally i made her ass come out the bathroom and she wouldn't even look at me! i hugged her and gave her a kiss and we walked out the port authority headed to McDonald's.

while walking to McDonald's this dude behind my girl yelled to my girl saying "what side of the side walk you walking on baby" and i was like oh boy here we fucking go. she said i ain't your baby and you act like I'm 500 lbs whatever dude kept walking and we turned into McDonald's about to order our food & out of fucking no where ! this mother fucker comes back and jumps in my face me & him went at it for like 5 minutes everyone in McDonald's was laughing and looking at me & him cause everyone knew my ass was about to fuck him up. he fucking got out my face cause he knew he was gonna get killed and walked out side then my babe followed him lmfaoo i had to grab her and we left his bum ass alone finally ordered our food and went about our day. while eating i couldn't stop looking at her and she wouldn't look in my eyes for a while cause she never saw eyes like mine lol we kissed, kissed and kissed.

after McDonald's we walked around went to central park took pictures, kissed stuff like that, lol. then it was dinner time and we went to Sophie's a Cuban restaurant it was so good then we went to Macy's and later that day we went to the village, a bunch of stores, McDonald's, Starbucks, sex stores. finally around 11 we went to the movies and i fell asleep i didn't feel good cause one i was tired two i was nervous cause it was almost time for me to leave :( and i made my self sick. after the movies we went to the port authority and waited for my bus that came at 3:45am -sigh we kissed and held each other & i told her to leave cause it was late and i didn't want her getting mugged or anything so she left around 2 something i never cried so much in my life i missed her so much :( :( :( and i still do.

i loved seeing her and being around her end of story I'm in love with this woman & i can't wait to see her again.

baby, here I come.

tomorrow is f r i d a y, finally.

ill be waking up at 5 am tomorrow to take a shower, get dressed, do my hair, eat & go catch the bus at 6:33 am. my bus leaves 8:23 headed to new york & ill get there 10:45, ah. I can't wait to see my baby.

b l a h.

im in class right now bored out my fucking mind -_-

im going to curse this teacher out to cause class starts at 6 and the bitch doesn't come until 8 o_0 dumb cunt.

make us all wait for 2 hours smfh.